13 PHRASES FOR LIVING

I've been searching for them for a while. Really love that stuff by Gabriel Garcia Marquez.
Agree on everything.

1. I love you not for whom you are, but for who I am when I'm by your side.
2. No person deserves your tears, and who deserves them won't make you cry.
3. Just because someone doesn't love you as you wish, it doesn't mean you're not loved with all his/her being.
4. A true friend is one who holds your hand and touches your heart.
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be seated by his/her side and know that you'll never have him/her.
6. Never stop smiling, not even when you're sad, someone might fall in love with your smile.
7. You may only be a person in this world, but for someone, you are the world.
8. Don't spend time with someone who doesn't care spending it with you.
9. Maybe God wants you to meet many wrong people before you meet the right one, so when this happens, you'll be thankful.
10. Don't cry because it came to an end. Smile because it happened.
11. There will always be people who'll hurt you, so you need to continue trusting, just be careful.
12. Become a better person and be sure to know who you are before meeting someone new and hoping that person knows who you are.
13. Don't struggle do much, best things happen when not expected.

L'été s'approche et j'ai pas de plans. A part le weekend de Greenfield (oui, je me rejouis de voir die Aerzte!!!) j'ai rien à faire. Il y aura du monde quand même à Lausanne, c'est vrai, mais l'été me donne envie de partir quelque part et avec mon permis (plutôt son absence) c'est pas très facile à faire :). L'été passée tous les projets sont apparus tout à coup, j'ai passé 2 semaines en Turquie et c'a été magnifique et ensuite je suis allée à la conférence en Allemagne et en Russie.

Cette année depuis un bon moment je me pose la même question: est-ce que je dois rentrer en Russie? Franchement, j'ai pas envie. J'y ai rien à faire, je pourrais peut-être aller chez dentiste (mais vu des prix, c'est lâ même chose ici) ou visiter le weekend de yoga (hélas, les inscriptions pout août sont déjà fermées). En plus, il y a Morf et je sais pas quoi faire avec lui, c'est trop compliqué. Et voilà, je me sens mal car j'ai pas de motivation. Et je réponds rien aux gents qui me demandent quand je vais rentrer. Même avec mes copines, j'arrive pas à dire la vérité(((, pour l'instant je les invite chez moi. Je regarde les billets, maintenant on peut acheter un pour 400.- mais j'hésite. J'ai pas beaucoup de vacances (bon, si, mais il faut un truc motivant). Bref, je suis perdue.

There are sunny days in our life. And there are crappy ones as well. Sometimes they last long, both of the kinds. A combination of sunny days can be called by someone approximation of happiness, the crappy period I prefer simply to name "crappy period" emphasizing on its temporal duration.

I had a couple of bad days. Visits to the cantonal police (I suggest you go there drunk, it would've been some much easier to deal with them:)), an average "what-am-I-gonna-do-with-my-work" crisis (has been happening to me too often since graduation, should reconsider the 3rd degree probably), financial issues (they happen when you're on non-paid internship), some personal problems just come up together. Combine it with the blood donation which makes you feel a bit weak and all together it's a perfect image. I feel like the life is testing how much can I actually take before I crack.

People dissappoint us. We dissappoint people. The question is - what is more difficult to overcome? For me personally I guess it's the second. When someone is not achieving our expectations, we could forgive/forget/readjust the expectations. At least 3 options (there are more, I agree). When we are not achieving someone else's expectations (parents, society, people we care about) I find it difficult to find peace with myself. Too much self-critisism apparently)). What are the solutions here? I am not really sure.

That's when friends come in. The ones you call and who listen. The ones who care. They might be just down the hallway or 4000km apart, it does not really matter. Because the friends love and accept you the way you are. And you're lucky if you have at least one such person in your life. So I'm lucky.

And I'm strong. If not, I wouldn't have still been here. However, I must admit, the idea of giving up everything (ok, not giving up but I'm fed up with certain things) and catching the next plane comes to my mind occasionnally. In such moments all you can think of is "J'en Ai Marre" and you hesitate between dying your hair in pink/piercing your *input the body part*/jumping from the crane of the Rolex Learning Center/another proposal please. :P I choose adrenaline rush. We'll see where it gets me.

TB and (not only) Russia

Since I’m working a lot on TB projects I’ve decided to write a bit about its specifics. The main problem about TB is not the money (the total treatment course costs around $20), it is the environment. A patient has to spend at least 2 months in the hospital (during the period he is highly contagious) and is supposed to take pills for 6 months. Problems? A lot of people can not stop working because their families need money, so they leave hospitals bringing the disease into the society. Here I must mention that according to the WHO data around 30% of population has the virus but to get sick the immune system has to be really bad. It also depends on the climate. In St. Petersburg, for example, since it’s so humid and cold almost 100% of people have the virus. But they don’t get sick. Unless they are IDUs (intravenous drug users) or HIV+ or suffer from other diseases. Plus, the methadone-therapy in Russia is prohibited so active IDUs stay in hospitals not for long, they go out on the streets to get a dose. Other people stop the treatment before reaching the 6-months period because they start feeling better. Once the treatment is stopped, the human body develops the drug resistance. And the TB comes back. In a MDR (multi-drug resistant) form. Treatment in this case lasts 18(!) months. You drop it, you get XDR-TB (extremely drug resistant). Around 60% of money from all TB projects goes to research how to battle drug resistance. But firstly it is necessary to provide the social environment which will help the patient to finish the treatment. Which often is neglected. Too bad for all of us.